So I'm no longer able to find a way out of it.
I'm sorry if i've made you uncomfortable because from the beginning, it was not a friendship that i expected from you.
But still I don't understand the meaning of your first smile that you throw in the crowded corridor of the campus.
Why when you take your body so far away, you also kept your soul from me and make me here alone...
If solitude was what you wanted,
Why did you let me entered the living room of your heart and left me alone in it. don't you understand?
Here, I was stuck in the living room of your heart that you sudently closed as my own in it and I couldn't do anything.
I wanted to explore the space of your heart while I was locked inside in it but you sudently did turn off all the lights.
I was trapped here! dark and alone...
I can't distinguish between day and night in your heart because there is no light in them.
I can't see anything but smile that you're accusing me at the time.
The more stronger I call your name, the more darker I feel your heart space become.
But when I stopped screaming, which came to me just the same smile that you're accusing me first.
For the world, your smile just means someone. but for me, your smile means all the world...
Whether it is good to let me imprisoned in the darkness of your heart when you choose to ignore the painful moans of me.
And whether it is good to let the turmoil undermining your heart when there is someone who relies his life on it.
Will I accepting the destruction of my finest prison without ever having felt the warmth of your heart's light which has recently deceased.
And will you allow me to convert that dark prison becoming a simple house with a flowers garden around it.
Why don't you let me to feel the sadness that you feel?, I will gladly accept your sadness as mine also...
I will keep waiting for the more powerful love to set me free from your love's prison but there is no stronger love than my love for you.
I keep silent without knowing when you will return to open the door that closes your heart and restore the light of life that you suddenly extinguished.
But if you reopen the door of your heart just to let me go out from your life, then better let me get stuck there forever.
I will remain waiting until probably love of my God that will take me away from your heart's prison because it is the strongest one.
Though don't know when, please allow me to knock on again the door of your heart.
Eventhough it is only ........................................................................................"A FRIEND".